Is it over yet?

So I had my birthday about a week ago. Went to the concert as planned. The week of my birthday didn't go over as I wanted it to. It was.....well, rough around the edges. I went shopping with my best friend, I got a tattoo, and then I smoked and drank a bit and went to the rave. BTW the rave was AWESOME! It was my first one and it was pretty damn cool. A lot of crazy shit happened like a girl fought with security, a guy jumped on stage and went crazy, a few guys danced with me, oh, and a girl fell to her death off of a balcony.

The tension builds steady...

So my 18th birthday is in four days and I'm hoping its a lot of fun. Hoping meaning I hope my plans don't get ruined some how. I have a good dinner with the family and friends planned, smoke a few with my best friend, drink a bit, and go to an awesome Skrillex concert. For those who don't know who Skrillex is, Sonny Moore who was originally in the band From First To Last, is now on his own making Dub Step music. Dub Step is kinda like rave or electronic but more bass beats. This will be my first actual rave so I'm a bit nervous but its cool cause I will be to trashed to care! After all this I have the joy of packing up more of our belongings so I can move to California, which i can't wait for that!! But wish me luck!

New Start?

So I've been stuck in a very small town for over a year now. No social interactions with many other people than my family. It has its upsides and downsides.The upside? I have learned a lot about my self, and i have tried to change for the better but I haven't had much practice with the "new me" since iv had no real social interactions with my peers since I've moved here. The downside of course is not getting along with my insane grandparents (subject for another day?) or my mother..... BUT! I am happy to announce that my mom and I will be moving to Frazier Park, California on August 1st! It is my home state where i grew up and had the better days to remember so i can not wait to be there again. I'm not sure if it will be much different for me there than here because it is another small town where i wont be going to school and may not have a easy time finding a job which means finding new friends will be a challenge. The house were looking to rent is very nice looking, 4 bedrooms 2 car garage, big yard, and a nice looking neighborhood. So all in all Wish Me Luck!

Who are you?

Who are you? 

Who are you to tell me who I am?

Who are you going to be in 2, 3 , or maybe 4 years?

Who am I? 

Who am I to tell you who you are?

Who am I going to be in 2, 3, or maybe 4 years?

I'll tell you.

You are no one special to me. 

You can never influence who I will be.

You will end up the piece of shit you look like.

I am someone you will never be. 

I won't tell you who to be cause I know you won't listen.

I'm going to be the person that has worked their ass off to be where they are.